The Laughter Inside My Mind
Deaths knockin on doors again!!!
Just a short entry today because i'm both tired and lazy..
A dear friend just passed away yesterday..no
signs..NOTHING..she passed away in her sleep and her
children said she looked peaceful and had a smile on her
face..at least she didn't suffer...i often wonderful if this
is where some of my insomnia comes from..no not from her
death, but the thought of my own..i always said i wanted to
go in my sleep so i wasn't aware of anything, but i often
force myself to stay awake because i feel that death is like
suffocation, i must be a weird one to feel that way, but i
can't help it..never know when we're going to die..it's
kinda scary yet somewhat of a relief, i mean, i wouldn't
want to know when i was going to die because i'd be scared
shitless, but also the fear of not knowing scares me even
more, because one is going about their day, next second;
that's it!! hell i hate thinking this way, maybe i need some
new meds eh? who knows..ah well..welp this is it for
tonight, long day ahead of me tomorrow....Until next time!