FaNGrL1987

Yeah, it's me
2010-04-20 10:30:16 (UTC)

5-ish in the AM

4/20/10

Well, I am still working on a lot of stuff as of the
moment so I figure to have some means of recording my
progress would be a good idea. My kids are the fuel for
this sudden epiphany. I can't remember where or what
exactly set it off, I just suddenly feel to urge to be...
better. Maybe not so hard edged to everyone? I don't know.
I just want to be better than what I had, and be like the
other kid's moms when they start school.

So here I sit in the wee hours of the morning. Chico looks
at me from his normal spot (Squished between my leg and the
arm of the chair) and blinks his approval. I don't know
what I would do without him. Only Chico gets me. Maybe
talking to my elderly chihuahua is not the best start to my
quest for normalcy. Either way.. I'm going for it anyway.

So I guess to be semi-normal, I will need as follows:
1) a college education. and a Job that proves that I have
completed said education. *sighs*
2) an OK car, at least one that will not break down in
front of their school when I drop them off. (Good thing I
am starting the car thing with a clean slate, no car a.t.m
is better than an old rickety one that I will become
attached to)
3) a place to call home. (once again starting with a clean
slate on this one.)

So, in order to get my quest started I have enrolled in
the local community college. A lot of people blast on
community college, but in all honesty, a lot of people
blast on the G.E.D, too. And beings as I had my G.E.D in
hand 2 years before my classmates graduated, anyone who
blasts on this is only jealous that they were dumb enough
to believe that they had to sit the best years of their
lives in a classroom. (no offense to anyone, just how it
is).

Only one problem with Quest #1. I have no idea what I want
to go for. I already have some credits from my previous
Quest #1 in law enforcement. But to be honest I seriously
don't know if thats what I want to do anymore. Hmmmm...
This will be evaluated later by myself and my career
advisor (A.K.A Chico).

So, as it stands, I am:

1)BROKE
2)Under educated and under qualified for any job that would
pay enough for me and the kids to make it on our own
3)car-less, which really sucks
4)living with my husbands parents. (more on that situation
later).

And where I want to be is:

1)Financially stable. Not rich but comfortable.
2)Gainfully employed in a career that I don't utterly
despise.
3)Driving a car that is not older than myself and gets me
where I have to go with minimal issues.
4)Living on my own

So. It is official, as of 5-ish in the morning on
4/20/2010, I Have decided to completely do a 360 on my
life. More to come, as I am not completely done my life
revision yet, but this is my rough draft.

-B




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