Kingdagger

Help me Remember
2010-04-19 11:26:52 (UTC)

M0nday

So I failed to write in my diary yesterday due to when I got
back from my dads house, the internet decided to not work.

I had heard some pretty big news yesterday about one of my
sisters and didn't know what to think of it.

On Sunday we decided to spend the day in the garden,
cleaning out the chickens and rabbits and watering the
plants. Maisie was round because Jim was out collecting
money for my dinner next week, for my birthday, which is now
in a week.

We all had to roast in the evening and then after a couple
of hours I decided to go home. When I was about to go home,
I started thinking about my Nan who has passed away last
year, and i had a small epiphany that eventually I would
die, and no longer be here, and was cease to function. It
scared me so much, my body was trembling and I had to sit
down. After this i started to realise how short life is, and
how i would have to do as much fun things as possible, I
look forward to marrying someone i love and having kids with
them. Driving back home seemed very scary, i felt i could
easily end my life at that moment, but also i saw the sun
shining and felt very happy to be living.

Mum and Jim asked if they could go out whilst I stayed in
the house when Maisie was asleep, so I agreed. The internet
was playing up so I decided to play Final Fantasy but the
game was getting ridiculously hard. I wanted to get hold of
Louise, but with no internet and no credit, I thought I
couldn't. I had completely forgotten I could use the house
phone.

I finally got hold of Louise and asked if she wanted to come
round. She came round about half n hour later and we had a
pretty awesome night in, with candles and music.

Now its Monday and I woke up at 12, Again, pretty fucking
late. I have to go back to sixth-form tomorrow. Which I am
hating the fact.

I will props update this later on

Charlie out.




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