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My Journey
2010-04-17 09:07:48 (UTC)

another late night

Wow, it's late. Actually its really early, almost 5 in the
morning and I haven't been to bed yet. But I did have a
long nap this evening, so I'm good to go.

I felt bad most of the day, headache, fatigued, just
basically lousy. The only highlight I had of the day was
reading an email I got from HIM. He emailed before 8 this
morning informing that me that he had indeed been out on
the road hence the email he sent the other night. He said
he "wasn't able to pick up emails for a couple of days" so
I'm guessing that's the reason for the early email this
morning. He wanted to know if I was home alone today and
would it be possible to call me. I almost freaked!! Of
course he couldn't call me today, hubby was home, of
course. He also said he would be out of town next week too
and wanted to know if I would be home alone and what times
would be good because he would like to talk to me
regularly. Can you just imagine how I felt reading those
words?? I just didn't respond back. Not that I didn't
want to, how could I?? I didn't want to email him and say
I was glad to hear from him, but no, he couldn't call
because I wasn't home alone. Not that he wouldn't think to
do that to me for one second, but, I'm not him either. I
know, I know, I need to leave well enough alone. I should
have ignored the email and replied back. Yeah, right, like
I would do that. So, I replied and told him that as far as
I know, I would be here alone except for Wed for another
appt. and before 3:30 would be good. Now, if hubby stays
home I don't know what I'll do. I'm not even sure if HE
still has my number. I'm assuming he's talking about
calling me at home, I'm not sure. And my cell doesn't pick
up here, and at the moment, I'm not sure where it is. I
don't even think he has my cell number. I think that after
the fiasco that happened last summer and I had it changed I
made sure not to give it to him again.

Okay, no more for tonight. I must make myself try to sleep
because I won't have much time for napping later today.
Tonight is the first race of the season, and hubby wants to
go visit his grandmother before race time. So my day is
pretty much planned out for me starting around 12 or so.
And it will be late when we get home. until later.....




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