forrealzkaitlyn

Kaitlyn'sJournal
2010-04-11 03:07:40 (UTC)

Whats wrong with me?

What's wrong with me? I know I love him but I like
someone else. Joe or Teddy? Joe, god I love this man so
much but we hardly have anything in common and I'm always
wondering if he's being genuine with me. I like Teddy
because we are about the same, I don't need to ask if he's
serious, I just know. And I can be normal around him and
tell him anything. Joe I always have to be on guard with
but maybe that's just because I don't want him to hurt me
like he did to me before.
I dunno. But what I do know is that I'm getting pissed
off that Joe and I rarely talk and when I see him I really
just blow him or we have sex. I dunno if its just purely
sexual because I feel that he really does like me, its
just that we don't see each other much and when we do its
not for a long time, so we get intiment.
I dunno fuck all of this. I hate second guessing things
but when I do then its just downhill from there and I
don't want that to happen to Joe and me because I love
him, right? I do, its just ... I question what he wants
and if this is real because it doesn't feel like it
sometimes.
Whatever.


-KAITLYN




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