abhinav

life around me
2010-04-04 10:09:37 (UTC)

4th april. missing shivangi


4th April 2010

8 : 08 am

"hello World" , good morning. Is this time a good omen. I
lost my very crucial friend. Since
last tuesday things are not going right. Even my mom talked
with her couple of days back, everything was ok then.
Only yesterday if i had not forced her to talk properly or
stop ignoring me. I wouldn't have been waiting
for a 'good morning ' message from her side. I don't know
what God is indicating to me. 'good or bad omen?'
But I have lost what i yearned most, desired most, loved
most my true friend. For her i gave the world
.when it comes to relationship life has always been cruel to
me. 'MAKTUB'.
I'm reading ,'The Alchemist' these days by Paulo Coelho.The
boy has reached the desert.

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"That's why I want you to continue toward your goal. If you
have to
wait until the war is over, then wait. But if you have to go
before
then, go on in pursuit of your dream. The dunes are changed
by the

The Alchemist 78
wind, but the desert never changes. That's the way it will
be with
our love for each other.
"Maktub," she said. "If I am really a part of your dream,
you'll come
back one day."

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9:44 am

hot morning!

Managed to read 20 pages. Sitting up here in room . Life is
dull, dumb, stupid. Whatever just
to say that it has stopped come to an abrupt halt. Just
because i'm alone need company, need someone to share.
I'm looking for an omen.A thought crossed my mind should go
home but i just came from home few on 1st of April.
Now i have put justin timberlake on track ' like i love
you'.

1:32 pm


i couldn't resist myself in messaging her. So i did by
saying good morning to which she didn't reply.
another message then she replied . we share few messages ,
she don't want to talk about past or
the way i treated her yesterday i got emotional again by
saying , ' dear , i will be a good boy'.
But she is not ready to accept me again.
I believe only with patience and not being impulsive i can
have her back. I took a long bath
sitting under tap and cooling my mind. Though nothing could
lessen the pain i was going through.
After reciting a little prayer to the living God, The
sun.Then, without getting clothes on I talk with shalu.
Tears couldn't stop falling from the beady eyes.




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