finallyy, hope :]
2010-04-04 05:47:09 (UTC)
everything's great but why am i this way "/.
so things with me and my bf are incredibly great, he's
going away for a couple days and wont be able to talk,
which i completely understand and i completely trust him
with all my heart.
why can i not think positive ever?
i always think that maybe he'll come back and not want me
anymore, although he wants to marry me.
or i think that maybe he'll decide that i'm not really that
amazing of a person as he thought.
he thinks the world of me and loves me like no one's ever
loved me before and i doubt myself.
i just want to change how i am...
if i don't i'm afraid i'm going to drive myself insane
while he's gone.