finallyy, hope :]
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2010-04-04 05:47:09 (UTC)

everything's great but why am i this way "/.

so things with me and my bf are incredibly great, he's
going away for a couple days and wont be able to talk,
which i completely understand and i completely trust him
with all my heart.

why can i not think positive ever?

i always think that maybe he'll come back and not want me
anymore, although he wants to marry me.

or i think that maybe he'll decide that i'm not really that
amazing of a person as he thought.

he thinks the world of me and loves me like no one's ever
loved me before and i doubt myself.

i just want to change how i am...

if i don't i'm afraid i'm going to drive myself insane
while he's gone.