hun-Mc

HMc
2010-04-04 05:36:55 (UTC)

Why? Apr. 3/10

Dear Diary...

Sigh
Its starting again. The whole in my chest is tearing
itself open again. I started thinking about "Mitch" in a
sexy objectified way. It quickly turned into thinking about
him and all his glory. His soft lips that are firm and just.
The careful way that he dominated me. The way he made sure I
was having fun... It pains me to even write this now. His
smile. The way he always wore the pants I liked him in...
The way he let me try new things with him. I miss his texts,
they were always full of sarcasm and jokes.

He tried getting a hold of me the other night...
Actually last night. Probably just for a booty call... I
really know how to choose them. He just wants sex, and I
want a relationship. It also sucks because we're from two
separate worlds, in two different galaxy's.

My phone is broken. So the space both I and "Mitch" had
is intensified. Not even Paul could help me right now. Also
the new guy at work stopped showing up. Brayden may have had
some interest when we were out at a birthday party. That
also opened a new hole I can barely seal on my own.

To make things worse... at the rate my life is going, I
will never have a life outside of Saskatoon SK.




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