sophie just sophe

my world my alone world
2010-04-02 09:50:15 (UTC)

i ve been pretending i m fine..

i've been pretending i'm fine for a while now pretending
that everythings fine, because when things are fine there
not good but there not bad at the same point but then d
pointed out that i'm not fine he's the only persson that
noticed everyne else was to busy or just didn't care but d
noticed he knows me enough to l know when i'm not fine so
people can make there coments about me but i don't care
cause i have d. people are just too much for me atm, i've
stopped doing alot of things mainly my healthy diet, its
not unhealthy its just not. my grandad might have skin
cancer in several areas my sister pointed out the irony
that it won't kill him cause he'll be dead soon anyway you
don't know how to react some peopole cry. i kept it all
bottled up until i couldn't then i cried and i think i
pushed everyone i care about away. its my birthday in 12
days and do you know what, the only thing i want is d and
no arguing, for cancer to just go away, its not fair skin
cancer is everywhere now i just can't take it, d has been
so sweet supporting me and talking to me but i'm scared
he'll freak out. and thing is i love him so much i don't
think i can lose him. x this is something i wrote a while
ago when everything seemed fine but its not not anymore d
left me just as i needed him 10 days after i wrote this two
days till my birthday i'd had exactly 258 calories and he
left me 3




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