mebecaity

Middle School Drama
2010-03-27 02:34:35 (UTC)

Boys?

Dear Diary, 26 March 2010
Ok so like i said i go out with Hunter, and im really
happy but its hard going out with sombody when the other
somebody is still in your head. Exactly, your ex! Its like
whatever people do, just reminds you of him and how
perfect he was and how much you want him. I hear his name
over and over agian all day "Devin Devin Devin" its like a
bell that wont stop ringing! Do I like Hunter or Devin?
Maybe i should just go back out with Destin i sometimes
ask myself. People say follow your heart and know what you
want. Well i dont know what I want and if i dont know what
i want then i dont know what direction my heart will take
me! Its a risky ride but like everyone else, i have to be
on it! So heres the weird thing:
Back when me and Devin went out he gave me a stuffed
panda and when you push its arm it says 'I love you'. How
sweet right? Well everynight i talk to it like its my
friend and the other night i said 'Why? Why cant he see
that we were meant to be? Why cant he see that him and
tiffany are no good for eachother?' (Tiffanys his
girlfriend at the moment) i said a lot more but thats the
main stuff. and sure enough today he came into 6th period
(we have that class together)and said tiffany broke up
with me. OMG i thought. could this be it? Could this be my
chance? Well i didnt say anything but sorry cause i go out
with Hunter and stuff but i sure did wanna say a lot more!
He flirted with me the rest of the day.. or well at least
what i call flirting. I flirted back passionatlly, not
wanting to show what i was feeling. i thought to myself
all day that what if i broke up with hunter? what if me
and devin did go back out? but what if i broke up with
hunter and we didnt? that would be loosing someone i
truely love.
Later on that night me and hunter talked on the phone.
we talked about a lot of things and its so weird cause its
like when im with devin, im in love with devin, and when
im with hunter, im in love with hunter. i cant make up my
mind of who i like. i know im only in 6th grade but this
is a big deal to me right now! Why do boys have to be so
difficult. If devin likes me then why cant he just tell
me. and hunter acts like he likes my best friend courtney
so if hunter dont like me then why cant he tell me. im the
kinda girl that when she likes a boy she straight up tells
him and when she dont like a boy she tells him like it is.
Why cant boys be as easy as me? Why do they have to be all
difficult? WHY WHY WHY?
Forever & Always,
Caity (:




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