blueberry

Confessions of a married woman
2010-03-23 21:41:04 (UTC)

What in the hell

What a way to start the week. Yesterday I woke up EARLy
like at 5:45 am and my husband was awake too! He started
questioning about Bret. I was like WTF! Anyway, he was
upset and pissed off, jealous to sum it all up. I guess
he got a hold of my cell phone and went through it, of
course! Very typical of him. Anyway he read the message
that Bret had sent me the day we got together about othe
kissing. Now answer me this, why didn't I delete that
conversation? Oh gawd! He was being a drama queen. I
just let it go and said, it is none of your business and
you shouldnt be going through my stuff. I took a shower
and off I went to work and he did the same only it seems
like he left a lot earlier than what he is used to going.

I didn't hear from Bret the entire day of Sunday and I
didn't make anything of it. I'm su re he has other stuff
going on... with other girls, i'm most certain, but thats
cool. Its not like he is the only one I am dating at this
time... i mean I go out with diff people just to meet and
greet, but anyway... on Monday at 1 am ish he sends me a
text telling me how his phone died and that he hopes that
I still have his number so that I can text him back and
that he too sent me an email.. of course I wasnt the first
to read that, my husband did.. ugh! But anyway... he went
through my pictures and EVERYTHING! Oh well.. its not
like he has made it clear to me that he wants to stay with
me. You know? So while he makes up his mind... I need
to find someone for back up.

Bret is really lagging I'm getting a little bit tired of
his picture game, how old is he 16? talk about being full
of himself. I mean I like confidence, but this is a
little bit too much. He doesnt ask that he wants to see
me again and that is driving me insane! It's been over
two weeks and he claims to be sick... i dont know if that
is an exucse or not but that is what it seems like to me.
I mean it is not like i'm hinting him to ask me out, nor
will I do that. I am not desparate. I mean he's a good
looking and intersting fellow but he is not worth my
kissing ass to, nor is anyone else. So I'll play his game
too. I have too much going on with my life to be
babysitting his 42 year old dude. lol...

I have been active in the dating world and I just hope
that I will find a friend, thats all i'm asking for. Some
really cool dude that is fun to hang out with and that
enjoys my company and that I dont make him bored and vice
versa because it is soooo uncomfortable to with someone
you are bored with and just dont feel a click... you know
that you are bothering him and that he is bothering you
too... maybe I should just drop it all and wait until that
day that he comes to me rather than me looking for him..
it should happen natural! Fuck it... I'm just gonna give
up..

and Bret.. hurry the fuck up or you are going to lose your
chance. I'm so ready to move to the next available
rep.hahaha




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