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24/09/09 - My Reality

You think you know me but you really don’t
You don’t know my insecurities
You don’t know what I think inside
You don’t know that I wanna go away and hide
I know that sometimes I can be moody
That I can be a mess at the best of times
But that is the real me, the way I feel inside
I know it’s hard to imagine that person being me
But there is allot inside that not many get to see

I’m lonely got no faith and I have no where to go
There are times that I cry for no reason,
just crying for the pain in my life
I’ve been through allot that you could never guess
I have seen things that some could only dream of
But I’m trying to learn to let go of the past
And move on in the future
Not forgetting but forgiving
Not leaving behind but learning from it

There are some lessons that I wish I didn’t have to learn
But its all part of my destiny, it makes me who I am
No matter how much it hurts and how much it has changed my
life
It is meant to be for a reason
A reason that I don’t yet know
But one day I will discover
That reason could be to help you or it could be to help me
And that all will come in time

You think you know what I am all about
But I hope you now know that you don’t
I don’t want you to take this as a way of me
Telling you that our friendship is null and void
It’s just a way of me letting you know
The reality.

Xx