missheadspin

My life..Love and Heartache
2010-03-18 20:28:45 (UTC)

Actually Don't Know Anymore

I really don't know anymore. I can't understand how he
thinks. Im starting to dout weather our 2year relationship
is coming towards the end or not. If yesterday wasn't
enough making me wait 4hours for him not telling mee or
anything what was going on I mean for all I would of known
he could of been dead! now I problerly sound like a
controling girlfriend. maybe I am. maybe I'm the problem..
I wish I could talk to some one about this but everyone
else is to loved up to care! Jess and Marci got back
together today I mean Marci was always there for me! now
its like she has jess so thats it. Aaron awlays gets my
problems so I can't leep going to him everytime.

Tonight he tells me that there is a work night out on his
birthday and that hes going, when we were meant to be
going out. I wouldnt mind but liike In a way its like he
doesnt think about anyone else I mean at my brithday he
went out on another staff night out.

god know I feel like im just chatting away complainging.
least now I canj ust write it all out instead of keeping
it in my head!
I do love him I know i do! like when im with him
everythings fine it when were appart that things go
pearshaped.
its so hard! I dunno weather I exspect to much of him or
what.
I just want some answers now.......
is that to much to ask?




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