Autumn

Autumn ♥'s...
2010-03-17 20:18:26 (UTC)

i miss you allready

I have 35 school days left untill i have finished school
for ever. i am scared shitless. Ive had school in my life
longer than i can remember, and to be honest, i dont realy
know what im going to do without it.

I dont like thinking about the end, although my friends
talk about it all the time. Every one is so exited to
leave, to go to Collage or 6th form. But im petrafied. My
friends, the people im closest to, the people i love, the
people i never want to loose, are leaving for London,
Edinburugh, Cardiff... far away place. I am scared to death
by the thought of them leaving. What if i never see them
again?

Im so scared of growing up. What will it be like? To loose
the people you grew up with? To forget your highschool best
friends name? To look at old photos and remember the days
you got illegaly drunk with your friends, smoked behind the
school bike shed, spoke about sex at the top of your voice
on a public bus- and not give a dam about it?? What will
that feel like?

I feel like im scared for my life, when realy im scared of
my life changing. I am sixteen, and allready i have
forgoten so manny amazing things that have happened in my
life. I dont want to forget my teenage life, and how happy
i AM and was during it. I never want it to end.
I want to be the teenager drinking illegaly at the pubs
with her friends. I want to be the teenager cought by the
teachers when smoking in school. I want to be the teenager
who talks about sex and boys at the top of her voice and
dosent give dam what people think!! And i want to be those
things for the rest of my life.

Why do things have to change??!!




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