ekheaton09

tha~truth~is
2010-03-10 04:33:06 (UTC)

confused...

Just so confused... am i here or am i not... when will u give me a kiss voluntarily... a hug voluntarily..U laugh w/evrybody else... kiss our daughters n tell them u loves them... but i get the silent therapy and no offered kisses n no offered hugs and only talked to when u want somethin or hav somethin to complain about... do i even exist? i feel like crawlin in tha bed n goin into acoma n never wakin up... that would b the best thing for me and obviously for her too... maybe she wont hav ta "put up with me". i really dnt think she wanna come home for me. just her bed. i might feel a little better bout this if i had some attention.. love equals passion and attention... i know she loves me.. i just think shes confused about life... she is 21. i was that way then. i guess ima just hav ta let her go do her thang n get it outta her system... its gonna hurt bad though for however long it takes her. a yr.. 2 yrs... months.. maybe 10 yrs.. who knows... all i know is im gettin a job n do what i gotta do.




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