Why do I even bother
2010-02-28 23:16:56 (UTC)

A little about me :)

So I am a little tight lipped. Because of this, I find it
hard to connect with someone on a more than superficial
level. Communication has a huge impact on your interpersonal
relationships and when your flawed in that area, it hinders
you ability to become emotionally vulnerable.

Don't get me wrong, I know how to emulate closeness and
perhaps I am wrong to constantly fabricate closeness and
bonds with people. But I guess that its just easier for me
to do that than to actually allow myself to be vulnerable to
some one.

I dont know what makes me this way, i think its called an
intimacy disorder. But its self diagnosis, and we all know
how credible that is...

Well this is starting to sound really pathetic.

Okay, back to my original purpose of writing an online
diary. I want to be able to get stuff off my chest. Things
that I cant imagine discussing out loud. Or even admitting
to myself out loud. I guess its a little therapeutic for me.
And if someone finds some small entertainment value, then
that's a bonus :)

I am a 24 yr old woman. I graduated with a B.A. in economics
in June 2008. I work full time as an admin asst for a
financial firm. For the first time in my life, I think I may
have a chance at love. I like playing online games and
working out at the gym. I have issues with my self and body.
I am very quiet, awkward and "nice." I laugh at everything,
I think that its my best quality.

I think that I've delved deep enough into my psych for
today. This kinda feels a little awkward... hahaha, well its
not much of a change from real life.

Till later

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