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Patricia
2010-02-25 13:58:39 (UTC)

In the middle of the storm

Its been raining for a couple of days now,
literally and figuratively.
Last night i desperately sought fixture between us.
I hoped i would find you, tell you everything i felt inside
and maybe you would reflect on our relationship.
You used to tell me
let it all out
speak to me
whats on your mind
trust me and tell me your thoughts
You knew i always had trouble with that, and now that i have
learned to do so. It hasn't helped much.
I kept telling you how much i loved you
and i was so confused because you would say you loved me
too.
So then i didn't understand why you weren't fighting for it.
Until now
Now i understand
You finally told me you have lost interest in this.
With that i can understand why your doing all this.
Pushing away and seeking true feelings,
while my life becomes chaos.
With that argument with my parents last night i am just
feeling numb.
I want to let the days pass by and take this storm with it.
I want to be ALONE and i am no longer fighting this.
I am tired physically and mentally.
So let the storm do with me, what it pleases to.
I'll take this chance to learn who i can be.
Maybe find an inner self, a chance to grow.. be strongeR.




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