tlg63

Gearheats Nightmares
2010-02-11 02:15:53 (UTC)

Complicated

Remembering our past childhood seems at times useless
because most 0f my past is blocked 'because 0f tamra'
inflicted on me and my siblings growing up.Not daily can I
remember what all happened in our lives but since my fathers
passing I've been calling my 'two aunts on my father's side
for answers about certain memories that I can remember. One
aunt just wont bring herself to open up and feed my need to
know the information I'm seeking.All I could get is a
comment as:I thought some thing was happening in the house
hold I just didn't know what.Why didn't any 0f you tell
anyone about the things going on in the house.

My answer to those was: My middle sister told you about our
living situation and we needed someone's help to break free
from the sexual and mental abuse.Well of course I heard no
explanation of why she didn't reach out to help her Own
niece's and nephew's.My other aunt and I talked for a bit on
the phone about my parents when they where grown dating each
other.I had been told as teenager how my two aunts didn't
like my mother but never heard the answers as to why they
disliked her and she made sure during this conversation she
said:I'm not talking about your mother since she's dead I
like your mother.I didn't reply to that statement just let
it pass on by for now.

It was six boy's and six girl's that my parents raised, one
older sister we lost at birth witch would've made it six
boy's and four girl's.I was told by my siblings that my
birth was a accident the rubber broke that's the only reason
I'm there so 0f course I thought about this growing up.Our
family life wasn't 'normal' meaning there was sexual act's
being done behind our closed door's not from our 'parents'
but from two brothers.




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