tlawxo

My secrets
2010-02-10 02:57:10 (UTC)

I'm tryna make it..

Person # 1.

Really, all you can say is "I'm sorry" naw, man. thats a
different story
I'm sorry from you..., it dont mean SHIT to me, so stop
telling me. oh i done lost your number, its gone from my
phone, nothing reminds me of it, time to do the same, please.

& One more thing, When she cheats on you.. AGAIN don't come
running back to me. I don't wanna hear it anymore. I don't care.

I've been trying to be cool about all of this, but It's just
time to drop it all. So after saying all of this, I wish I
could forget all the good times, but I don't really wanna
so.... Please, just don't talk to me anymore.. Don't look at
me and Don't text me.

Person # 2.

I don't care about how happy you are with the crap thats
went on.
I know. I've been through it with the same person.. He makes
you happy. He made me happy. I just don't understand why you
keep telling me. It just keeps making the whole situation
worse for me. I'm glad youre happy. Really, I am.

Just please, Don't bring me into it anymore. I don't wanna
deal with this all again.
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I've got a lot on my mind lately..

Some things are just getting to me, real bad.
Like I wanna start doing good and school and not smokin' so
much. I mean hell, I like smoking but yeah.
I wanna get my grades up and do good. I love the friends I
have now, I don't think I'd be me if it weren't for
them..But.. I miss all my old friends so much.
I hate being told I've changed & a lot of people have been
telling me that I've changed. I don't like it :(
But, I'm so much happier now that I think about it. I
haven't cut in like 2 years and it used to be an everyday
thing for me. I'm proud to say its been so long you can't
even see my scars anymore :) But some days I just feel like
going back to all that then I think of how happy some things
and some people make me. I just lost one of them.. and that
sucks. Really bad. I reallllly liked him too. Stupid boys.
Blah blah blah. It's whatever I guess.. He's back with her.
Stupid bitch. UHG!

On a happier note..
School was canceled again, for tomorrow. That makes it okay!
S is coming over tomorrow also. So that should be fun :) J
might come over too, yaknow?

Back on my bad subjects..

P has been outta the group for a while now. We've all gotten
alot closer too. I guess we caught on to what she was tryna
do. She wanted all of us to be mad at each other so she
could have us as individuals to herself. Not gonna happen.
Nothing can break us apart. NOTHING. Too bad. We're
bestfriends. Which means you want me? You want all of us.
Get used to it.

Well, I think I'm done for today. This is my first diary
entry, & So far.. I like it alot. :)




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