beejayy

Seeking UN-answered questions
2010-02-07 02:06:22 (UTC)

baby!3

Not to sure anymore, it's so confusing cause it's like i
love him and i say that a lot, its like that's how i feel
but i cant help it. i feel that i don't get enough love from
the ones at home so i go searching for it some where else if
that makes sense. i say i love you to a lot of people but
don't mean it most of the time, but i say it that way they
will be happy.. not sure well i am sure that that's not the
right thing to do but i just cant help it i feel so bad when
they look at me and say well what u don't love me, its not
that i don't i just love them in a different way i guess. i
am so unsure of how life and love work but i think this one
is for real... it lasted a year and a half once before and
we started talking plenty of other times but just never went
any further.. not that we are back together again its like
all the feelings that were there once before are starting to
come back and i just wanna pick up where we left off but its
not that easy... i seek many answers but i find NONE!! that
makes it difficult but that's just the way some things work
i guess.. one day my answers will come to me.. but when I'm
not expecting them to.. i just hope it maybe one day soon
and when i need them not years down the road when I'm no
longer looking for the answers.. ughh things can be so hard
UN-answered!! but things work in odd ways and EVERYTHING
happens for a reason right... one day everything will come
to me.. :p




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