IAmTheArsonist

TwistedCrazziness
2010-02-01 15:12:50 (UTC)

eh!

Eh! life is alrite 4 now i went to my dads house this
weekend so i didnt really have 2 deal with my ma. altho my
dad can talk me 2 death. i got to spend time with my bros
tho i love them so very dearly and i hope the best 4 them
since im not there to raise them n e more. my 15 year old
bro is exactly like me and i wish he wasnt i kno i can
help him thru more now cuz he is going thru the same
things i went thru but i dnt want him leading the life
that i am yes it can b funn but it is also dangerous and i
dnt like this 18 year old boy that he hangs out with he is
not a good influence at all. but i guess i will live with
it cuz until i change my ways and move out and move him
out of his enviroment * which i will* then he will keep
doing wat he wants until i get on my feet to raise him a
tad better. but otherwise skl is going great i got
switched outta my pap math class and now im n a level
class im still a year ahead tho so its all good. im n a
class with mostly juniors which is alrite cuz most of my
friends are older than me n e ways and thats the way i
like it cuz im more n their matureity level. i met this
new guy that wants to come to my party this saturday but i
cant help but thinking about matt n the back of my head.
this boy is great to we have alot n common he goes thru
the same thing with his parents and everything 2 plus as a
bonus he is outrageously cute (: and i think that if
things fanned out that way it would b all good but all i
can think about is well wen matt comes back wat would i do
would i stay with the guy i am with or would i go back 2
him and then the answer is always the same i would go back
to matt of course i would i mean that boy is ah-mazing and
idk wat there is about him that makes me like him so much
(: 3 idk but after i got outta the shower the other day i
grabbed his class ring outta my drawer and looked at it 4
awhile and started thinking about wat we had and wat we
could have and about wat my friend said about marrage and
everything i mean i think that is ridicouls that i would
get married at 16 but it would b for some1 i really care
about but i have no idea how the future is gonna pan out i
just kno that i like him now ya kno idk if i wanna b with
him 4 the rest of my life i kno that would give me the
opportunity to c him all the time cuz if we got married i
would go to live out in illinios with him so yea i just
dnt even kno and im not even gonna make that an option
rite now. but i guess that i will just c how things go and
wait 4 him 2 come back 2 me and yea life will go on. i
guess thats all 4 now so laterz
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