sabina

Sabina Being
2010-02-01 00:30:38 (UTC)

Patrick Left today

Patrick went back to college today. Our plan is to see
eachother less this semester, and try to become more
independent of eachother. I guess just in case we have to/
decide to separate this fall.

Got into Cornell. That's the third school I've heard from
so far. Should hear from Hampshire sometime this week. I am
sort of nervous but i have been waiting for so long now
I've become a bit numb.

I've just tried not to think about the future much. We will
just both have to see where we get in and what we can
afford.

To make everything worse my dad! tried to talk with me
about it.
He was like, so....how do you feel about Patrick
transfering to the same school as you?
I explained about how I wasn't sure..
haha. Then he said, well does Patrick know this?
He was under the impression that I didn't want Patrick to
come with me and he was just doing it like a loon.
hahaha.

God, honestly my parents. They've known me for 17 years.
You'd think they'd know a little more about me. Like
Patrick and I aren't going to talk about this. Really they
have no idea about our realtionship.
And I plan on keeping it that way. It was a serious mistake
telling my mom we were having sex. God she's so
embarrasing. She started crying! MOM! what do you want from
me?! It was a mature decision. We waited a whole year for
god sake! I don't mean to sound like a complete douche bag
but I would say that Patrick and I are about 50 times more
mature and "ready" and going about this the right way than
every single person I know who is having sex.
I wouldn't have told her, but she asked me right to my
face, and I had always promised her I would tell her
before. Well that didn't happen, my ideas about that have
certainly changed! Its my personal business is what I think.
And isn't just more uncomfortable and awkward if I would
tell her. Well yes, as it turns out, yes it definately is.

God these posts are so long winded.
I have an enormous amount of college applications to do
before tomorrow.

Sabina




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