Shay

Shay's Rebellion
2010-01-30 18:46:29 (UTC)

Trust and Acceptance

As I said in my last entry, I have been having some issues
with a few of my "friends" from when I was younger. Well,
its a pretty long story, so I'd settle down in my recliner
chair if I were you.

I'm not afraid to admit that when I was in middle school, I
was wierd. I mean, I could have been worse, but I definatly
wierd. I was the really quiet kid in the back of the class
who was always reading and hardly ever talked. The only
friends I had were the ones that I had known since I was
little. Everyone else I just pushed away. I also liked
stuff that no one else was interested in, like acting,
music, and disney movies/anime. I didn't care about make-up
or clothes or boys. I was a freak.

I have changed SO much over the summer. I started wearing
make-up, lost ALOT of weight (I wasn't very fat, but now I
am pretty skinny), started wearing contacts instead of
glasses, and bought a TON of clothes that actually look
good. I also cut my hair pretty short.

But most of all, I changed my outlook on life and
personality at school. I stopped liking stupid things like
Disney that I was way too old for. And I talk lot more. I
went to a school of the arts, and I have soooo many friends
now. I'm actually pretty popular.

But the downside to all of this is that my friends who knew
me before never get to see me. They decided to go to the
local public school. Except one (who I will talk about in
the next entry). They all still think that I'm a freak like
I used to be. Some of them won't even give me a chance and
go to the point of avoiding me! Everytime I try to hang out
with them, they cancel or pretend to not have seen that I
called or messaged them or whatever.

I might have many friends now... but in reality, I feel
lost, betrayed, and alone...

Sincerely,

Shay





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