the_elsinatr

PenMuse
2010-01-28 19:38:51 (UTC)

I Feel You in my Heart, and I Don't Even Know You....

Yesterday Heleana, my friend from junior high decided to
set me on a date with one of her hockey people. His name is
Dylan and he has red hair.

I'm sort of nervous. Maybe it's because he's not meant for
me. Already I haven't even gone out with the man, and look
at me, presuming the demise of the date. Maybe I need
someone whom I instinctly feel about, like Tegan and Sara's
song, "Nineteen". But I feel like there's deja vu
somehwere, like I'm supposed to go out with him, like its
part of my fate.

I've always had the strangest sensation of deja vu, ever
since I was young. I'm used to it. Sometimes I have dreams
that relate to my life, or a slight feeling during the day
that gives me a deja vu feeling. I suppose everyone has
these feelings, but it's just some people who can actually
relate it to every day life. I feel insecure with these
feelings. I've already told Mom about it and she believes
me 100%, but still, I don't want to be called a liar.
Everything about this is true. I'm not lying at all. Some
people might not believe me, but it's entirely true,
everything I've just written down.

With this Dylan guy, I feel as though we met, as though
we're close in some way. It's really irksome. I don't know
him at all.

I'm so scared when I think of the future. Slight feelings I
may have about certian parts of it won't be as sure. It
really freaks me out.

I hope Dylan is a nice guy. I wouldn't want to waste a
perfectly good day by having a lousy date.

*sigh* oh well..




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