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Nick's Journal
2010-01-27 19:09:30 (UTC)

Fucking Big Decisions

i loved being a kid. the hardest decisions you had to make
were between popsicle flavors. now? i have to decide
whether or not i want to contineu spending the usurious rate
of $900/mth for a nice downtown office for my law firm.
well, after i get through negotiating it will be $800/mth.

i got the office when i started my firm. i then got
contract work for this company to work as their corporate
counsel. so i spent part of my time at that office and part
at my own. the firm hasn't been going as well as i hoped.
it is fucking hard as shit to get clients. but really what
bothers me is that i just don't ahve a mentor who can teach
me. as justice holmes once said, "the letter of the law is
experience". that is really all it is.

so now, although i can pay the $9,600 for a year's worht of
rent i don't know if i should. i mean on the one hand
that's a shitload of money. we could use that to pay off
juli's school debt. on the other hand, i really feel as
though, when i give up the office i am giving up a little
bit on my law firm. i mean, there's just something
different about working from home than going to an office.
but then again i spent 10 hrs a day working at home when i
studied for the bar for 2 months. so i'm capable of it...

i don't know...it's just a really hard decision but i am
leaning towards not renewing. i can always get office space
later on in the firm's life, that's not really the main
issue i have. my main problem is that it just feels too
much like...at least pscyhologically...that i am giving up
on my practice. although this isn't true, it just FEELS
like it. sigh. but i can't go on paying that type of money
just to assuage my own worries.

haha, i just turned to my left and my dog had a rope toy in
his mouth, he stared at me and then let out a loud ass
belch. maybe working at home does have its perks...