Marilyn

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2010-01-26 02:40:20 (UTC)

Day 1, messed up me

After chatting with my mother on the phone today, I've
decided to start a diary. I'm hoping that it will help me
release all the built up stress around me....Mom said that
it might help to start writing my feelings down, then come
back a week later and see if I really had anything important
to be worrying about...Like today...Dylan (my 8 year old
son) came home and told us that his teacher is going to
reward him with a toy out of a treasure box every 2 weeks,
that he is good in class all day long....The boy isn't a bad
boy, and I don't understand why this is happening.It seems
on Friday, he scratched a girl, and today this happens, I
feel like they are punishing him for no apparent
reason...moving on....My husband is having back problems
again, and had to go to the hospital Sunday morning, which
kept me from visiting my family 2 hours away, and I haven't
seen them in 3 weeks now...Now the hospital visit is going
to cost us $150.00 which is a bill that we really didn't
need right now. We just purchased a house this past summer
and money is very tight....moving on....One of my daughters
is in college and she is worrying how she is going to pay
the bill, and of course we'll be helping her out, as much as
we can...and my other daughter is fighting with her best
friend...which wouldn't bother me as much, if that best
friend wouldn't have tried to kill herself last summer
also...Yes, after writing this down, I'm hoping that SOME of
the stress from all of the above, will allow me to rest and
move forward...besides all the above stress, I'm over weight
and trying as hard as I can to watch what I eat, and I think
I'm doing ok...I wish I would get off my butt more and do
the treadmill that is sitting in my livingroom to help me
lose the weight...but my foot and both knees are hurting all
the time and make me feel like I'm a 90 year old woman
instead of turning 40 this year...and now the TV is acting
up, so I need to go try and help my husband figure it out....




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