looney girl

INTRODUCTION

LET ME INTRODUCE MYSELF I AM A 32 YEAR OLD FEMALE, MARRIED
WITH 3 KIDS. THIS DIARY IS STRICTLY TO SAY THE THINGS THAT I
NEED TO SAY BUT I COULD NEVER SAY OUT LOUD BECAUSE THEY
COULD RUIN THE LIVES OF SO MANY PEOPLE. YOU SEE I HAVE AN
ADDICTION. NOT DRUGS OR ALCOHOL OR SHOPPING SOMETHING THAT
COULD BE FAR MORE DANGEROUS.. IT'S SEX. IT'S NOT SO BAD YET
THAT I AM WALKING AROUND FLASHING PEOPLE OR HAVING SEX WITH
HUNDREDS OF PEOPLE OR SPENDING ALL MY MONEY ON PORN BUT I DO
FEEL THAT EVENTUALLY IT COULD COME TO THAT. IT STARTED OFF
AS AN INTERNET ADDICTION.. I STARTED OFF JUST TALKING TO MEN
ONLINE AND REALIZING THAT IT MADE ME FEEL GOOD TO GET THEM
OFF AND FROM THERE IT MOVED TO PHONE SEX AND MY PHONE SEX
ADDICTION GOT PRETTY HEAVY I WOULD GET UP AS SOON AS MY
HUBBY LEFT FOR WORK AND HAVE PHONE SEX AND I WOULD STAY UP
LATE AS SOON AS HE WAS GONE TO BED TO HAVE PHONE SEX. I
WOULD DO IT EVERY CHANCE I GOT. FINALLY THAT FIZZLED OUT AND
I MOVED ON TO THE REAL THING.. I MET MY FIRST ONLINE
"FRIEND" A YOUNG GUY AGE 22 FROM INDIA WHO WAS GOING TO
COLLEGE IN TEXAS AT THE TIME. HE WOULD FLY HERE AND STAY IN
A HOTEL FOR A WEEK WHERE I WOULD MEET HIM EVERYDAY DURING
THAT WEEK AND HAVE SOME FUN. I DID LOVE HIM VERY MUCH JUST
NEVER ENOUGH TO LEAVE MY FAMILY AND I DON'T THINK HE LOVED
ME ENOUGH TO HURT HIS FAMILY IN SUCH A WAY EITHER FINALLY HE
MOVED TO CALIFORNIA AND I MOVED ON TO ANOTHER GUY. HE IS AND
I SAY IS BECAUSE I AM STILL SEEING HIM HE IS A 62 YEAR OLD
FIRE FIGHTER FROM MOBILE. I LOVE HIM TO DEATH AND EVEN
CONSIDERED LEAVING MY HUSBAND FOR HIM BUT I KNOW HE WILL GET
OLD AND I WILL STILL BE YOUNG AND ALSO IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR
TO HIM TO THROW 3 YOUNG KIDS ON HIM AT HIS AGE NOR WOULD IT
BE FAIR TO THE KIDS. SO WE JUST GET TOGETHER USUALLY ONCE A
WEEK AND SPEND TIME TOGETHER AND OFCOURSE HAVE SOME FREAKY
SEX. MAN HE IS A FREAK I LOVE THAT. AND THEN I MET WAYNE ON
POF HE HUNTS HERE SO I DONT SEE HIM THAT OFTEN A REALLY
SWEET MARRIED MAN I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM BUT WE DO HAVE
SOME AWESOME SEX. WE TALK DAILY ABOUT ANY AND EVERYTHING HE
IS A WONDERFUL FRIEND OF MINE. AND THEN I MET PAT ALSO ON
POF WE TALKED A LOT AND HE WAS OK I NEVER REALLY HAD A BIG
ATTRACTION TO HIM FRANKLY HE KINDA BORED ME BUT WE DID MEET
UP AND HAVE SOME AWESOME SEX IN A HOTEL IN MOBILE THIS TIME
LAST YEAR WE SAID WE WOULD HOOK UP AGAIN BUT NEVER DID I
HAVE SINCE DELETED HIM FROM MY PHONE AND MESSENGER AND NO
LONGER HAVE ANY CONTACT WITH HIM. THERE IS A COUPLE MORE
THAT I HAVEN'T YET MET BUT I PLAN TO DO SO SOON,THEY ARE
MARVIN, RON AND RUBEN. RUBEN IS AN ASS ONLY WANTS SEX BUT
TRIES TO PRETEND TO BE MY FRIEND BUT I SEE RIGHT THRU THAT
CRAP BUT IM GONNA GIVE HIM WHAT HE WANTS ANYWAY JUST SIMPLY
BECAUSE THERE IS SOMETHING ABT HIM THAT INTRIGUES ME. MARVIN
IS UGLY AS HELL BUT THE THING WITH HIM IS HIS WIFE HAS
AGREED TO JOIN US AND I SO WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING TO TRY
HAVING SEX WITH ANOTHER WOMAN WITH OR WITHOUT ANOTHER MAN.
AND LASTLY THERE IS RON I JUST STARTED TALKING TO HIM A
COUPLE OF DAYS AGO BUT HE SEEMS NICE AND A REAL GENTLEMAN SO
IM DEF GONNA MEET HIM. THERE IS A LOT MORE THAT I WANT TO
SAY BUT I JUST DONT HAVE THE TIME RIGHT NOW I WILL BE ON
HERE EVERY NOW AND THEN AS OFTEN AS I CAN TO KEEP THINGS
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