Little Lauren Big Mouth

The Way Of Life
2010-01-10 10:22:17 (UTC)

boys, boys, boys

life sucks.

and so do best friends.

one of my friends has a amazing step-brother (giving no
names)who is like my perfect match. he knows when i'm
seriously depressed and i need cheering up, even when i
pretend i'm happy.

he is the first boy i've loved with the whole of my heart.
we keep talking to eachother, and even though i was
grumpy, he managed to put a smile on my face by midnight.
it's like i'm cinderella and he was prince charming
slipping the glass slipper onto my foot. :) :)

but my best friend was feeling a bit spiteful and she said
that he fancied anything with a pulse. that brought my
confidence down. falling in love with someone similiar to
me, and then getting told that i was nothing special to
him.

my life isnt going too well at the moment.

i asked my nan, because she is the closest family member
to me, whether my pain would heal over time. she told me
that i couldn't forget the first serious love i had, and
that i had to grow accustommed to the helplessness.

i forgave my friend, mainly because she knew how i felt
(my dream boy had told her he fancied her as well) but our
friendship wont be the same again. she had cheated me out
of love, even if he fancied other people.

i will never have another best friend, i'll just confide
in my nan.

but i wont tell her about the agony i go through when i
see him. this is just one boy, i may still love him, but
romance is dead.

lots of love,
lauren




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