Tae

I drink Alone
2009-12-22 15:52:45 (UTC)

Again! :))

Well the day before my bday I found I'm pregnant. It's
taking us awhile to get used to it. We wanted at least one
more, but not for a couple years. So after this one I'll get
"fixed" and we wont have these surprises anymore lol
Of course Joe is hoping for a little boy. I don't really
care, for his sake I'm hoping boy. And it would be cute to
have two girls and two boys. But my little girls are so
precious I won't complain if we have another princess.
I am not looking forward to being pregnant so soon again,
it's almost four straight years of pregnancy for me. I am
especially not looking forward to having another surgery
since I never fully recovered from the last one. I was
telling Joe that I'm probably going to freak out the most
this time because I'm so tired. It's a big deal to me to
feel alert and ready before the surgery. Otherwise I'm way
more likely to start crying or freak out about everything.
You'd think I'd be an old pro, but does anyone really get
used to this? My favorite part is right after the surgery, I
love when they first bring my baby in and I can hold her.
We haven't told his family and most of mine yet. Mine is
excited because they love babies. His will not be. His will
flip out. I'm not looking forward to it because they can be
really condenscending and make me feel like I'm 12 years old
again. Joe isn't too worried cause he doesn't really listen
to them (he says) Hayden already let it slip to Caleb, I
asked him if we'd just deny it if Hayden told them on
Christmas Eve and he said no. So here's hoping Hayden
forgets and doesn't say anything. That's sure to ruin
Christmas lol
Morning sickness is starting, fatigue. It's all really
depressing me. I have three babies that need my attention
constantly and here I am feeling bad and sorry for myself
for nine months.
I hope time passes fast.




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