hell on heels

Fuckity Fucks.
2009-10-10 18:39:51 (UTC)

goodmorning

I woke up today feeling pretty good im eating a bowl of
oatmeal that my lovebug made me. I have a feeling today is
going to be a long one because I am already about to fall
out and ive been up for about 20 minutes its only noon. My
day consists of working at 6pm and making pot butter until
then should be a good day. oh and later I think we will go
to a lacrose game. I wouldn't say that I am in a funk but
lately I don't think i've been myself or maybe I am
finally finding myself either way its different then how I
used to be... end of my rant!

I am slowly learning that I do not need to compare myself
to everyother person in the room. I'm not sure when it
started but my mind is constantly running.. am I good
enough, over, underdressed? I think that I am always
trying to better my self by changing small things about
myself hair makeup tan run the other day someone asked me
to picture myself in an empty room. I closed my eyes I
could picture the room nothing in it at all. but I could
not draw myself into the illusion I can't remember what I
look like I know the color of my hair and eyes but nothing
else. I seriously can't remember my face I just forgot.
Weird or is that normal?

coffee & treats are almost done =]




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