dvb

taking heed
2009-09-23 03:15:28 (UTC)

I need help. Anyone's help. Please.

So so so so very depressed. I really just want to die - I
wish it was option because I can't live like this. I can't
live with myself taking my frustrations out on the one I
love because I can't deal with the way my life has gone. I
don't know if I can be better any more, I don't know how.
I'm so so so tired, 5 out of 6 days, and I'm trying to do
my part in this move to the new house and I keep falling
short. I scrubbed as much dirt and baked on food I could
out of t4he depths of the oven over the past two days, and
it took so much out of me.. such a small task and it
rendered me spent. And it's still not completely clean.
How do I get more energy@@@@.?? I hate this.. I can't do
anything.. I'm tired and my body aches. I wish someone
would give a damnj, because I need help. I need help badly
but I don't know where to go. The pace of the world is
passing me.. my eyes can't keep up, my legs, arms, brain,
respatory system. I'm not saying this for attention. I
used to never complain about my body and things, it was
never such a life blocking thing. I can do very little, no
one is proud of me, no one wants to be around me right
now, no one calls me... submit.




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