Aeryn Sun

Uncharted Territories
2009-09-14 10:46:21 (UTC)

Done before it even started

I have my answer, I'm done. This, whatever is going on betw
me and Q, is over; its done before it even really got
started, how sad. I saw him on Friday for a little bit, he
stole away from work. Then we were supposed to see each
other today but he hasn't contacted me and his phone has
been off all day. I'm tired, kinda wish I'd never met him
b/c since we've met he's all I've been thinking about and I
can't let this take control of my life.

This is starting to remind me of my first relationship,
where the guy barely had time to spend w/ me. That was
frustrating and its happening again. Q barely seems to have
time to spend w/ me b/c he's always working. And he doesn't
call and rarely texts. I'm tired of waiting by the phone,
tired of wondering when I'll be able to see him. I don't
want a relationship where the few times I get to see the guy
is when he can afford to steal away from work, maybe an hour
here, an hour there. And I don't even know if he wants a
relationship or just a fling b/c I haven't been able to
speak to him! This is so upsetting, I must have called his
phone about 5 times already for the day.

Well, at least I don't have to worry about my commitment
issues again for awhile, I can go right on ignoring them.
I'm sad, but its for the better. Everything happens for a
reason.




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