blkdragon

grounded
2009-08-18 14:12:31 (UTC)

Baiting traps or swap meets

7/31/09– 7:31 am?Worked on music yesterday, in a rush to add
to my list, streamlined the process; omitting the joining.
Came down to the wire on that project, didn’t leave the
apartment until 7:10pm, got to the rink by 7:30; noticed the
woman that wore the sexy panties was skating without her
entourage. I also noticed that she was skating with my
friend that usually spends most of his time with the elder
gentleman that recently greeted me, I’d thought she was his
Wife’s Sister, they have similar features; she isn’t though.
The elder gentleman didn’t skate last night, that was the
reason my friend skated with the lady, she wore a pair of
pink pants that made it appear as though she has no ass at
all; she would do something reminiscent of Patty before the
end of the night.
I noticed a Latino Family, 4 boys, Mom & Dad; Father sported
slicked pony tail. I felt the intensity with which the woman
of mention was focusing on me, even though she skated with
my friend, I use the term friend loosely; we are aware of
one another. He once attempted to get me to feed into his
online revenue stream, that didn’t happen; eventually he
would leave the rink and her alone.
I’ve noticed this woman in the rink across from where I
practice, an area I will frequent if my normal area is
packed, she made the attempt to not appear to be watching
me; I know now that she spends quite a bit of her time doing
just that. Things would be so much easier if she stopped
trying to be seen and approach me, I’m not a mouse and she’s
not cheese, no need to act as though a trap is being baited
and if it is; I’m not biting.
I would be surprised to eventually see her sitting in the
area I normally warm up in, rather than be obvious, be
proactive; roll up to me and ask whatever questions you want
answered. She would sit in that area, seeming to hope I’d
return there, while she sat; she’d get a better look at me
and I’d get what? We’ve both been skating the rink for
years, she didn’t appear to be the type that enjoyed dark
chocolate, I thought I saw her leaving with a guy; younger
than the bf she seems to have discarded.
I’ve mentioned her being a smoker, something tells me that
she may be sick, she’s awful thin; compared to my friend’s
Wife. I remember when my friend’s Wife first waved to me,
I’d needed the attention of a woman that day, it both
surprised and warmed me; he tells me that she’s grossly
insecure. He’s a handsome man, they have a Son that
sometimes skates, he’s told me a lot about the young man;
how he wants him to leave home because he’s often
disrespectful and he smokes herb.
There would also be a couple of young Sistas skating with
their children, just because a woman has given birth or is
capable of giving birth doesn’t qualify her to be considered
by me, especially if she isn’t at least 30; they made a
point of skating close to me to no avail. David would skate,
he’s a whore hound, he hits on anything that doesn’t drag
itself on it’s elbows; making a point to speak to every one
of the women on his way out.
My problem is not wanting to be at the mercy of the geometry
of attraction, I really don’t want to have to figure out
what X means, I enjoy appreciating the beauty of a woman
without feeling a need to take another step in any
direction; I also understand that it doesn’t matter what I
want or think in such situations because the woman
ultimately makes that choice. My attraction quotient doesn’t
increase because I decided to step to her or does it, does
my response to her stimulus tell her that I’m hearing and
listening; tell her that I’m looking and seeing? Why
wouldn’t my notice of her be enough to show my interest, be
enough for her to suggest, “now that you’ve seen me; let me
learn more about you and teach you more about me?”
I was out of bed by 5:30, I’d considered working out at the
Y, it soon began raining; a downpour that threatened flash
flooding and I decided to stay home. I have a therapy
appointment at 9, we’ll see how we feel after that.
8/1/09– 10:34 am?Therapy is always draining, stopped at the
Y to see Nik and Cathy, they were both gone; talked Nick’s
ear off instead. Nick is Nicole’s boss, she had to go home
and he had to be in the pool for her, young guy with a crush
on Nik; we talked about women and stuff. I left there and
returned home to prepare for the rink, got there after 7,
the Competitor was there and the object of his affection
would arrive later; she’s gravitated to the new guy though.
The new guy is someone from another rink, the Competitor
befriended him, more like kissed his ass; now he’s become
lint in their respective pockets.
The Competitor was how the man and woman came together, now
he’s become useless to them, she’s feeling a bit of remorse
and pity him; she knew how he felt about her and would go to
him as he prepared to leave the rink. He should have known
she was never going to be his Cougar, the new guy is tall
and relatively handsome; confident enough not to be
overbearingly demanding of attention. The new guy did fall
last night, everyone seems to need to prove their abilities
around me, none I’ve seen have a repertoire of footwork;
that happens to be my strong suit. I’ve only seen the guy go
fast, reasonable skater in reverse, it’s been enough to get
the woman to hitch her wagon. The Competitor would leave
early, head low, pace slow; I’d meant to speak to him last
night and I doubt it would have helped. Where he’d have
spent most of his time with the new couple, he attached
himself to some kid, appearing to be in a mentoring
position; the man and woman have appeared to become a quick
couple. They spent most of the night together and the woman
didn’t bring her children, that left her open for
extra-curricular activity.
I often find myself grunting/growling from the effort I
exert, loud enough for those close to hear, I can only
imagine what may run through their minds. I was surprised to
see Cassandra last night, she hasn’t been to the rink since
April or May, I went to say hello to her Father when he came
for her; she’d asked me to spin for her but I told her that
my wheels were new and I was still getting used to them. I
did spin quite a few times afterward, I never see her make
an attempt, her Father told me that he was shining his gun
and I can’t say I blame him; Cassandra is beautiful.
I got a call from Jay, Thursday night, he didn’t seem to
want anything; I was in the drug store when I grabbed the
call. He was telling me about his vacation, how he wants out
of the military, what he plans to do upon his exit and then
the connection went dead.
I’m wondering if I’ll see the Competitor tonight, if the new
couple will be there as well, I’d planned to call Willie and
haven’t. Sheridan didn’t skate Thursday, I’d planned to take
pics of him and Anne, should have gotten pictures of David;
I’d also planned a short video of the Competitor.
I’d planned to attempt swimming this morning, between having
my shoulder stretched at therapy and working it on skates,
it’s still too sore to attempt swimming strokes of any kind;
I’m thinking I’ll shock Nic Monday morning.
Charles went through great pains to tell me that he had my
money last week, he just didn’t go through any great pains
to return it to me, to show him how unimportant it is; I
haven’t bothered to attempt retrieving it. I haven’t called
him, he knows that I won’t be and he hasn’t bothered calling
me. I returned home yesterday to find that UPS attempted to
deliver my new phone, they’ll return Monday.




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