NotSoSadSadie

The Laughter Inside My Mind
2009-07-09 00:07:17 (UTC)

Weeks to Months...........How is that fair????????????????

So, as if work wasn't hectic enough with all the phone calls
i had to make today, or the crabby consumers or the grocery
shopping that i did ( i know i'm a whining bitch right?)
well i decide i'm going to pop by the hospital and pay mom a
visit..i think i got my head cleared enough today to be able
to put on a smile for her...WOW i get informed they found
more cancer in ANOTHER part of her body...i can't believe
how fast it is spreading, it's like every week it's going
somewhere else..why is GOD making her suffer? i just don't
get it. i'm soooooooooo angry...really angry..and i try not
to cry in front of my mom and boys...i need to be strong or
so i feel like i do..have to hold it together for everyone
else because what can i say when i talk to someone? i don't
want pity..i want mom's pain to go away, i don't want to see
her suffer...we are meeting with her attorney on Monday to
go over her will and power of attorney for her
finances..this is going to be hard, but i know her wishes so
i am taking over that department..she wants to start packing
up some of her house (just the stuff that belongs to other
people) i was up pretty much all night thinking of ways to
handle her impending death..there's just no way to face it,
i know it's going to happen, but i want to knock death in
the jaw and tell him/her to fuck right off..i wouldn't wish
this disease on anyone!!! man..i'm lost for words..fuck me
running..i think i'm gonna go for now and i'll write again
soonish..

Peace,
Sadie




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