blkdragon

grounded
2009-05-04 04:42:03 (UTC)

Dreams and realities

5/1/09– 1:43 pm? Hit the rink last night, wasn’t too
surprised to see Mike, he told me his boys were with him; I
expected to see Sheridan and Anne, they’d arrive later.
Harrison would hug me when he saw me, Mike told me that it
seems his Mother-in-law doesn’t need them, they’ll be
heading back to NC by July; the news saddened me.
I rolled quietly, I’d find Nancy’s Mother looking at me, I
eventually approached her to introduce myself; she told me
her name is Judy. We talked about skating, middle age and
the elderly, communities and shut-ins; how I hope the
skating rink I want to open will address all of these
issues. We had quite an animated conversation, I’d sit down
beside her, Nancy would stop for a moment; see us talking
and continue skating. Judy mentioned her Granddaughter, the
one I’d seen crying, wanting to learn how to skate; the fact
that Guptil’s doesn’t have anyone to do that. I told her
that I teach, that her Daughter (Nancy) has my card, I would
approach them as they were about to leave; I put my hand on
Nancy’s shoulder to let her know that I was there. Nancy
told me that she’d try to find my card, that she knew where
to find me, Judy would tell me that she had a great time
talking with me and I told her that I enjoyed talking with
her; that I would see them upon their return.
I would notice that Mike was getting off on his skates,
raising his feet to the beat he listened to, he’s still
tight; he’s working on opening himself up. I was impressed,
I’ll have to tell him so, I would see that the boys are
improved as well; they seem to have found new friends.
Harrison informs his Father about everything it seems, he
also gets his Father to dance to his tune, I’d tell Mike
that he was a push-over; I’d be surprised to see Willie
standing at the door. He was there to inform me that he may
need a ride tonight, I’ll be informing him that I’ll need
gas, I told him to call me by 5:30.
I noted Sheridan and Anne entering, I continued skating, I
attempted to wave to Anne in passing; when she didn’t
respond I stopped making the attempt. He’d come onto the
floor to (tentatively) let me know he was there, his powers
of observation are lacking, not mine; for a moment it seemed
like he thought I might be angry because he married Anne.
That seemed to be the impression I got from Anne as well,
why should I care one way or another, I would say hello to
them as I changed to leave; Sheridan exhibited his ring and
Anne would show me hers. I didn’t/don’t consider their
marriage a big deal, a mistake perhaps, not my problem
though; they’ll have to live with the decision they’ve made.
David skated, Mike would tell me that he imagined David to
be something other than a skater, because he carries his
skates in a briefcase; Dave and I would banter before the
end of the night. He wanted to talk about the skating rink I
have in mind, I would correct him when he acted as though he
was the impetus for my decision, as though he were carrying
me in his wake; he would mention the economic development
corporation. He told me this entity would assist in making
my dream a reality, I’ll contact them and find out.
I would wake to turn off the alarm at 4:30, I’d get out of
bed by 5:30, it took a while for me to realize I’d just
awakened from a dream that I was swimming in the pool. I
made it to the Y by 6, didn’t want to stop in the pool,
talking to Nik gets carried away; I wanted to say hello to
everyone. I told them I was ok, I found out the Ron is an
architect for the Health Department, if he doesn’t ok the
plans; hospitals don’t get built in New York State.
As I wrote, I heard sounds outside my office window, it was
Karen; Paula’s dope fiend Sister and she had friends with
her. Everyone but the driver of the car appeared to be
loaded, one woman that seemed to be suffering from Rosacea
told Karen that she didn’t need to answer to me, Karen was
seriously loaded to the point that she might fall on her
face at any moment; Rose face was a heartbeat away from a
ride to the county. With one call, everyone would be cited
or arrested, the driver was trying to get Karen to vacate
the premises; that would be the smart thing to do. Karen
wouldn’t be able to convince a police officer that she was a
joint owner of the property, her friends saw that I wanted
everyone away from here, even Rose face was smart enough to
get out of my line of sight; her attitude was motivating the
palm of my hand to scratch itself with her face. At one
point, Karen began crying, I couldn’t get her to understand
that it isn’t smart for her to arrive here with cronies in
tow; that had she come alone things would be different. The
last thing in the world Paula would want is for Karen to
bother the new business or tenants here, especially when
she’s loaded and running with “heads”, the driver was
willing to leave her here to keep from having legal issues;
I was trying to be patient and firm. I told Karen that I
live here, that her Sister wouldn’t come on the property
without notifying me, this is to keep from registering as a
trespasser; as was happening now that I’m hearing voices I
don’t recognize. Rose face didn’t like the way I spoke to
Karen, I didn’t care whether she knew I was familiar or not,
I could end the confusion with one well-placed call; it
didn’t matter that the current roster of tenants were
oblivious to her existence or the fact that her comrades
were already in the process of breaking laws. I leaned on my
car to watch them drive away, I then returned inside my
apartment to inform Paula, I’ll get a call from her later.
I went into the gym, after talking with the old people and
Nik, my work out lasted less than 30 minutes; I returned to
the pool. Nik looked at me, looked at the clock and asked
I’d just run a 3 minute mile, she asked why I was sweating
so hard; I told her the routine I’d attempted and that it
should only take 30 minutes. I told her that I left two of
the exercises out of my routine, I’ll attempt to complete
them all on Sunday, I showed them to her and told her that
the routine was already chiseling the muscle groups
targeted. A few hours later I’d find that I was exhausted,
my legs were humming, I was very hungry and ready to lay
down; good thing I drove my car.
I returned home to grill chicken, ate a few pieces, soaked
in the tub; washed and hung clothes while editing my music
library. I’m hoping I didn’t wait too long to sign up for
summer classes, Mike had asked if I’d found a job, I told
him that I wasn’t looking for one and he seemed shocked; I
explained that I need to captain my own ship. I told him
that I have but 10 years to give to any company, most
companies wouldn’t give the time of day to anyone my age,
misconceptions of age; I’ve already proven myself capable of
any/everything anyone ½ my age can do. What it is I
propose/hope/plan/attempt to do has been a long time coming,
I am trying to move heaven and earth to see it done, I don’t
want to sidestep my intent by working under someone else’s
banner; unless it’s the right someone else for the right
amount of money!
Now I need to incorporate the new music, I found through
Nik, into a virtual mix for the rink tonight; I’m hoping
Mike skates so I can get paid. Paula goes out of her way to
create projects designed to pay me, she doesn’t want me not
living at her property, even if all the other tenants leave;
I bring her a measure of security.




Ad: