blkdragon

grounded
2009-04-29 02:59:05 (UTC)

Owww!

4/27/09– 3:09 pm? Stayed up too late, didn’t want to get out
of bed, rescheduled my appointment with Harvey for tomorrow;
therapy went rather well. I had the therapist show me what I
should do and why, I was sufficiently tired when he
finished, they’re used to insured patients and didn’t want
to tell me not to return; they weren’t convinced that I’d
pay for their services. I headed for the Y, talked with Nik
for a while, it always seems to be about Cathy and her
fixation with being Nik’s clone; also the fact that she
overstayed her welcome last weekend. Nik and Keion were
shopping at VS for lingerie, Cathy didn’t see a reason not
to join them, she should have; she would purchase the exact
same panties and thongs Keion picked out for Nik. When Keion
and Nik retire for the night, Cathy doesn’t consider that
they should have their privacy, that they don’t have their
privacy as long as she’s in their space; with them. I told
Nik that she should have taken everyone for fast food, on
the way home detour to Cathy’s place, tell her how tired she
was and wink at her; that way Cathy could be part of the
plan to separate herself. Carl, Cathy’s Brother would arrive
after Keion had fallen to sleep, he suggested spending the
night on the sofa with his Sister; neither of them should
have slept on the sofa.
I’d noticed an inordinate amount of disturbed people today,
one woman would walk across the street, over and over again;
her pants were below her ass and her crotch. I’d first
thought she was a man, until I saw the silhouette of her
breasts, I’d wanted to tell her to pull her pants up; it
would have done no good. I then wondered why I hadn’t seen a
cop anywhere, normally they’d be at the bus stop harassing
the “heads;” she was a disturbing sight.
I’d notice Cathy checking out one of the Y’s male members,
she’s obviously oblivious to the unspoken rule frowning on
fraternizing with the members, should her attempts to relate
to this man go awry; she still needs to work there. I’d also
find out that she’s asthmatic with eczema, I thought she had
a rash, she; Nik and I left the Y together. We separated
from Nik and kept walking downtown, I left her at the
theater, she may be wondering why I haven’t given her a tour
of my apartment; I’m afraid she may misread the intention.
Nik may have had initial misgivings, until she got to my
place and saw that our friendship remains respectful, I
would never attempt to take advantage of either of these
young ladies; certainly not Cathy.
I began washing my dishes and preparing my meal when there
came a knock at the door, I thought it was Joe, it was
Pelham; I invited him in. He’d stopped for coffee, I told
him that I’d thought of him earlier, he saw that I was
washing dishes and preparing a meal; I didn’t offer him
anything and I didn’t add to the meal being prepared. We
talked about the wedding I refused to attend, our past
relationships, not much new in his life; my hopes for the
near future. I finished the dishes and the meal, sat down to
eat and finish talking with him, questioning his motives
with the woman he was discussing; he likes to bandy the word
bitch and that directs me to open his eyes to the fact that
he chose to relate to these women. He’d been with me for an
hour before he began looking at the time, I wasn’t saying
what he wanted to hear.
I’d get a call from Sheridan later, he’d immediately put
Anne on the phone, we’d talk about politics and their time
without me.
4/28/09– 10:22 pm? I set an alarm to be at the gym by 5:30,
I was sore as hell upon awakening, didn’t leave the
apartment until 7:30; I worked out for about an hour. I did
a couple of the exercises prescribed by the therapist, tried
doing a chin-up, no discomfort there and I should be able to
manage all of the exercises in the new program I’m adopting.
I’m setting my alarm for 4:30, I may bring Nik coffee and
say hello to the old people, Lynne would remind me that I’m
also old; I’m merely 11 years her senior and these people
are 30-40 years my senior.
There was a body builder in the gym when I arrived, a
massive man, don’t know why they call it body building when
the only thing the man seems capable of is lifting weights;
he couldn’t run to save his life and he requires tools to
wash himself. My problem with the guy was the fact that he
kept dropping the weights he used onto the floor, I would
also note him checking me out, both of these things began to
rub me the wrong way; I’d quickly finish my routine and head
to see Nik. The pool was locked, I headed upstairs where I’d
see Cathy, she told me that Nik was on her way up; I walked
outside with them and then walked Nik home. Something
seemed different when we hugged, she seemed to hold on
longer and squeeze harder, I’ll have to ask her what that
was all about; I told her to tell Keion that he could come
over to clean his car.
We’d notice a woman approaching as we talked, older than
Nik, wearing white pants and in great shape; I resisted the
urge to turn and watch her, I’m sure Nik and I will discuss
that tomorrow. I was supposed to return to the Y later this
afternoon, got busy with music and stayed home, I was also
supposed to go to SCC; I’ll see about registering online.
I didn’t realize the therapist worked the hell out of me,
I’m still feeling the effects of his efforts and mine, I had
an appointment with Harvey this afternoon; we hit a snafu in
the adjustment of the partial plate. He’d snugged the thing
so tight he had to cut it off me, not before he caused me
considerable discomfort, in his efforts to please me; I
don’t fault him. I’d ask Harvey about Chante’, she had her
baby in March, I told him that I thought she was relocating
to NC; he told me that he’d go after her if that were the
case. I also told him that I thought they worked very well
together, he said she joined the staff for an afternoon at
the Cheesecake Factory, I’ll have to tell them all that they
make me feel like Family; I told Harvey that I’m trying to
send Charles to him and that I’ll probably have to pay for it.
I called Charlotte first thing this morning to wish her a
Happy Birthday, I left a message, she’d return my call
without registering on my phone; thanking me for the card
and gift. There was a sense of awkwardness on both of our
parts, I wasn’t planning on trying to talk to her, she’ll
probably call me at some point in the not too distant
future. I’m sure she thinks I have a problem with her body,
the truth of the matter is that she has the problem with her
body, she acts as though she has no idea what went wrong
when we were together last; I’m of the opinion that there’s
no way she couldn’t know what bothered me and some day we
may discuss it.




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