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February 2, 2009 - Home
Today
I realize
once again,
that a human being,
will always be a
human being.
Because today,
I learned to cry once again
for the memories buried
deep inside my grieving soul.
Today
I am lusting,
craving,
and yearning,
for the tears to overfill
my selfish
slumbering dreams.
Those damned dreams,
condeming me to these
insane thoughts...
I ask myself today,
"Where the hell am I?"
"Where did I go right...
if I'm here?"
So if there was a split of this and that,
then this and that can be here and there.
I have asked you so many times my Lord,
"Why!?"
In my dreams and in my thoughts,
these insane glitches.....
these replays of something that
I hold onto..
Why can't I be where I want to be?
Not only can I not call this place my home,
But I now am doubting my reasonings...
of here and there.
All I ever truly want right now,
is the place that I always called home.
The place that I have put away for so damn long...
Today I realized,
that I dug the biggest pit in my heart,
and tossed that thing that I called home,
inside that deep dark pit,
Fearing that if I don't,
I will lose my grasp,
and it will fly away from me.
Because today,
I dug up the same pit,
just to live in the life
of the place that I called
home.
Today,
my damnation...
has got me to thinking,
of the place that I want to be at...
Home.
11/02/08 *Janie Huynh*
Aha..Shows how much I miss home when I was gone. Tsk tsk.
Oh wells. But now that I finally have it up.. I might as
well put up my new poem I wrote last night. *cheers*
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