Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2008-11-12 18:44:26 (UTC)

Wed. Nov. 12

I'm not in good mood at the moment. I'm grumpy. My mother is
the queen of making me feel like shit. I hate her for that.

I haven't been in school for a week now and I haven't done
much. I have to stop this or else I'll be kicking my ass.
I'm thinking of cleaning my room the best I can for now and
then maybe tonight I can start some reading. I'm thinking of
going to the big library downtown. I seem to be getting more
reading done over there.

I'm going to the volunteer place soon and hopefully it puts
me in a good mood. These kids are a handful sometimes, but
they always put a smile to my face.

Whenever I'm there I feel wanted. It makes me feel happy to
know that a few kids run to me when they see me walking in.
To know that there's someone out there who wants my full
attention for the 3 hours that I'm there.

I love it. And I need that right now.

I want so badly to leave this house. I just want to move out
and be alone. Fuck.

One day.

I just want to go things alone.

I should take a shower.