blkdragon

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2008-10-10 17:31:05 (UTC)

Rotators and rainbows

10/10/08– 12:27 pm–Today’s my Elder Brother’s Birthday, I
thought about calling Rose to get his mailing address,
perhaps I can send a money order; I’m sure he’s locked up. I
may even start writing to him!
It seems the Rainbow Coalition had a rendezvous last night,
complete with the Power Puff Boy and his two male toys, I
have a problem with regular people going out of their way to
be “seen;” it speaks of a gross insecurity to me and I find
that pitiful!
I wasn’t bothered, Tom bent my ear for almost an hour, he
knows how much I don’t want to get involved in his Internet
business, he asked about the website I bought; I told him
that I haven’t bothered to launch it. I mentioned Pelham and
he seems to have a friend like him, Tom lives on farmland,
his Wife has two horses/cats and wants a dog. Tom’s Wife
skates sporadically, a pretty lady in great shape, he tells
me that she’s grossly insecure; I still remember the day she
waved to me. Hers was a perfect gesture at a most opportune
time!
Lisa arrived with Finnius and his friend, she waved to me,
she’d spend a lot of time talking with Mike and I’d notice
she seemed to keep her eyes on me; perhaps that’s my
insecurity, but I doubt it. She probably wondered why I
didn’t party with the Rainbow Coalition, she made a point to
come to the rail while Tom and I talked during our roll.
I would keep an eye on the time and ask him if he was
working that night, he told me that he was, I told him that
I had to get my heart pumping; we shook hands and said good
night. I’d spent more time with Tom than I’d wanted to, he’s
a nice guy and I like him, not as much as I like the time I
have to skate.
I’d gone to Sheridan’s earlier in the day, I noticed he’d
bought tray liners, I’d gone to Home Depot and bought a
couple myself; I’ll return mine. He would motion to me
before leaving, I’d been ignoring him, if none are watching
will you cease to move; why will you not move for the joy of
motion?
I’d ask if he’d been to his property, had he seen my work,
he affirmed each and ask me to stop working when I got to
$200; I was already past that. I’d told him that Anne
suggested he wanted me to do something, what he’d tell me
wasn’t what I’d imagined, he was in the process of
refinancing his mortgage and wanted me to do nothing until
the refinancing was official. I’d told him that I’d planned
to begin working early Saturday, now I see that I won’t be
back there until he calls me, I have work to do here that
will keep me busy for a while; I can begin working on the
framework to cover the hole in the metal decking outside my
door.
I’m also considering repainting my living and bedroom, white
needs too much cleaning and is the absence of color, I may
do Hunter Green for the bottom of the wall and leave the top
white; I’d also considered imagery of some sort. Most
important is an expression of my artistry, it might even
include calligraphy.
I thought of Charlotte, as I left the rink, I didn’t make
that call though; I so badly wanted to tell her that I’d
dreamt of her. I want her to know that she has worth, as
much as she spouts, she doesn’t believe her own hype and I
know it; I don’t want her spiraling into a depression
because she doesn’t feel loved.
My shoulders were sore this morning, I didn’t get up for the
pool, I need to strengthen my shoulders/rotator cuffs, I’ve
considered the gym for weighted exercises I can’t do here; I
will be doing laps tomorrow morning regardless.
I think I had a homosexual dream this morning, I woke with a
residue of some of last night’s characters in my mind, the
idea of males copulating with males is repugnant to me; as
is adults copulating with children.
Remembering Nicole mentioning changing the wording from
marriage to commitment when discussing homosexual
relationships, I thought that idea insightful.
I’ll need to give my dentist 6 bills in 3 weeks, then 3
bills when I see him after that, our business should be
concluded satisfactorily by then.




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