Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2008-07-24 19:51:50 (UTC)

July 24, 08

I should be getting ready to go out, but I felt like writing
a thought down.

Sometimes when I look at myself in the future, I see myself
being alone or with a little girl.

I see myself living alone, but being very independent and
well off. I see myself living in a nice condo downtown,
having nice clothes, a beautifully furnished home, a car and
being happy.

Sometimes when I'm walking in the neighborhoods in my area,
I would see a really nice, yet old Victorian house and I
could picture myself playing in the front porch with my
daughter who has long blonde curly hair and again.. being
really happy.

I'm not saying I see myself dying alone with a child. I've
just always had that idea of myself 5 years down the road.

In a way it's comforting to see that if I do end up living
alone or raising a child alone (which I pray to God it
doesn't happen) that I will be happy.

Then again... it's just parts of an idea. I just haven't met
someone who I see myself spending my life with. Until then..
it's just me :)