McKaY

McKayism: Everything, Anything & Nothing
2008-07-21 03:53:46 (UTC)

another illusion in life?

when all of a sudden from complete emptiness to two really
good potentials sitting left and right, facing in front of
you, how would you choose? what is the determining factor
to choose between an apple.... and another apple? i
realize it might be a really stupid idea to actually put
the two together in the same room and compare and
contrast. one or both of them will just walk away and
life would turn back to emptiness again (which might not
be a completely bad thing). i need to think strategically
on how to proceed. for one apple, we had a long history
and known each other for a long time. went through a fair
amount together and a lot of mutual memories but there was
never the connection and can't continue to live in the old
memories. there's something lacking like a more
understanding of each other's background and thoughts.
for the other apple, there's the click and commonalities,
but there's also the split in personalities and interests.

well, actually... to give them more credits, this could be
a more thorough and in dept analyzation. but to cut
myself some slacks... i need to stop analyzing and over
thinking this too much. all i can say is... what am i
doing? what am i thinking? how could i possibly think
this is happening? how could i even allow this thought
process to take over me? i can't afford to put my energy
through this process any more and set myself up for
another let down. and this time, it might be a double let
down. i'm just a little confused whether or not this is
happening or it might be just one of my imagination or
illusions.

pshhhh




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