Middle Child

June 29, 08

A lot has happened since i last wrote (12 days ago) and I
feel the need to joint them down, so they don't linger in my
mind.

I've decided to take another summer course because I can. I
spent a week at home once SS1 was over and I couldn't take
it. I can't find a job that I want and I can't stay home and
sit and think because that will only make me depressed. This
course isn't so bad. I don't mind it all. I just hope my
anixety doesn't kick in on my way to school or while i'm in
class because honestly... i have nothing to be afraid of!
So once I'm done this course I'll be at 39 credits! YEE YEE!
51 credits more and I could possibly graduate. I'm really
desperate to finish school and start my career job.

I haven't been doing much to help my anixety. I recently
purchased a book that my councilor told me about. But I'm
getting lazy. Honestly, I don't feel like I do have
anixety. I don't want to talk too much about it.

As for the boyfriend. Last night we had a really serious
talk and it put us both to tears. We started talking about
how far this relationship will go because we both have
different plans 10 years from now. It hurts to even think
this, but we won't be together for a long time. I want to
settle down in a couple of years and he just started
attending post secondary school. I told him that I do I want
to settle down soon, but having my career is my first
priority. I want to go far and possibly obtain my phd. If
life puts me on that path, i will take it and put family
aside. We agreed not to discuss this until later on in the
relationship; we're still young. I have such strong feelings
for him.

ADVICE: Dating your best friend will not always lead to
tragedy, but a comfortable and happy relationship :)