Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2008-06-04 03:49:01 (UTC)

Tues. June 3

I have 3 more classes left and I'm done summer school. How
amazing is that!

I'm really needing a job right now. I didn't know how
dependent I was when I had a job. I bought myself needs that
I need and now I can't. I need to ask my parents for money.
It's like freedom was taken away from me!

There's a feeling deep down inside telling me that I won't
find a job this year. It's not my year to work. I feel like
this year is going to be a busy year with school. I feel it.
If I don't find a job, I'm better off teaching myself some
math for the following year.

My boyfriend and I make 3 months :) So cute.. awwwwww! lol

Sometimes when we're together, he's quiet. I get the
impression that he doesn't want to be with me. Then he gets
sleepy and yawns. Fuck. That's what I do when I'm in class.
Maybe he's bored? lol. Am I boring? Hmmmm lol

I told him about my bestfriend and I feel like a bitch
because of it. I really hope he doesn't think I'm a shit
talker, because I'm not. I also told him about the
counseling at school. He's so understanding and caring. I
love him for that. I love that he listens, asks questions
and reassures me that it's nothing wrong.

This is why I'm dating him.