Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2008-04-25 19:06:48 (UTC)

Keep Quiet.

“Keep away from those who try to belittle your ambitions.
Small people always do that, but the really great make you
believe that you too can become great.”


It turns out the guy that my friend was madly in love with
is dating some other chick.

Looks like I need to keep my happiness to myself from now. I
don't want her to feel like shit every time I tell her a
cute moment between my boyfriend and I.

It seems like when you're really happy, it's best to keep it
to yourself because a few won't be smiling with you. If
anything, they'll wish it was them and it will hold them
from being happy for you.

It hurts to accept this, especially among my friends.

What can I say.. in the end it's just me. No one else
matters. Sadly, we need each in other to grow, mature and
live. If I had the choice to be alone, I think I might take
it. But I can't. It's not a option.

I gave her a chance. She didn't take it. I probably asked
too much from her. It's ok. I'm going to continue what I've
been doing up to now, going on my own. I wanted to take
this chance to be her friend. I think that point has passed.
I'm strong though. I accepted it and now I have to just move
on with my eyes looking both ways.

I will meet a friend who will love me for me and want to see
the best in me. Maybe I just need this time to figure out
who I am and what I want. It'll come.