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Nick's Journal
Elitism and is this day over?
juli jinxed me. last night, in requesting a story, she
asked me, "nothing's happened to you lately that would
constitute a journal entry?"
well this day came to pass, and so far this is my third one.
it seems that, when it rains, it motherfucking pours.
as if it weren't enough that i had almost gotten into a
fight with some annoying hippies, had witnessed someone
almost get run down, but the day had in store for me not
only one of the most awkward situations i'd been involved in
in a while, but also a "backstab" from a friend.
coming out of the library, i was spaced out. 3 hours
studying income tax will do that to you. as i was walking,
thinking about the accrual method of accounting, i couldn't
help but notice that an asian girl was kind of waving at me.
it was one of those tentative waves, where she kept her
elbow in close to her side, allowing her forearm to swing
back and forth like a metronome.
i had no idea why an asian girl would be waving at me. as
far as i knew i had no asian friends. so i kept on walking,
casually glancing over, noticing that the waving was now
intensifying with a somewhat odd feverence. i was about to
turn the corner to the stairs, when i looked behind me,
noticed there was no one, and finally came to the
realization that, no matter how much i didn't think so, that
wave belong to me.
so i shuffled over. "hey?"
"hey! don't you remember me? why won't you come over to
say hi to me?"
i was completely and utterly perplexed, did i know this
person? i had no idea. christ, who was this?
"i gave you a ride! you don't remember someone nice enough
to give you a ride?"
and that's when i realized who she was. she was a friend of
my friend's who gave me a ride one saturday.
the only defense, well the only truthful one, was that all
asian girls look the same to me. i basically divide them
into two categories. the really studious, conservatively
dressed, and the extremely slutty with a lot of makeup on.
there hasn't really been an in between, "normal" type that i
have ever seen. but then again i can't help it, it's just
that i have so little interaction with them. anyhow, i
couldn't right well say that to her and sheepishly tried to
explain it away as being "spaced out."
but she wouldn't let it go, she seemed really annoyed by my
not noticing her (not that i really blamed her).
anyhow, it was just really awkward cos she kept me there in
conversation, although she obviously was angry with me.
finally i left with an awkward goodbye.
then i finally made it to my last class of the day. where i
was treated with, what girls always refer to a good old
friend stabbing me in the back. it's not really like that.
but the deal is, i took this coursse on the assurance that
i could use my friend's exam book.
upon request today, he wsa kind enough to tell me that he
had lent it to someone else. fucking awesome. considering
he promsied it to me at the beginning of the fucking semester.
and i know why he did it. i know he still harbors
resentment that i didn't let him use me to cheat on the exam
last semester.
fuck.
on to elitism. i've read a lot about this "tired"
stereotype. you know what? it's beyond that. people are
talking about how ironic it is that someone like clinton or
mccain is calling out obama for being an elitist. they have
money, they have power, they are in the elite. but these
people are missing a huge point.
OF COURSE they are all elite. that's why they are where
they are. it seems like a truism to me. the deal is not
what they actually are, but how they act.
you don't think that i don't know for one second that
clinton and obama have achieved a great deal? that they are
truly elite. more elite than i for sure.
i can deal with that. fuck i don't really care. what makes
people care is when they express it.
mark twain's great quote of, "it is better to keep your
mouth shut and be thought a fool, than open your mouth and
remove all doubt." is so apt, just substitue elitist for fool.
look, we all aren't under some grand delusion that all of a
sudden obama is this elitist while mccain and clinton are
drudging in blue collared life. we're all under the
impression that they are elitists. obama just made the
mistake of opening his mouth and removing all doubt.
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