blkdragon

grounded
2008-04-17 00:19:23 (UTC)

Routines and fixations

4/15--5:02PM--I handled the printing at One Stop, checked
a couple of employment links, headed for the library; I'd
noticed a call from Colleen. I called her and told her
that all went well this morning, no problems bringing Luv
his things, that reminded me that I'd seen Kathy at the
jail; no idea what she was doing and she ignored me when I
attempted to say hello. I know that she recognized me
instantly, I had my back to her, she didn't bother to
speak then either; I'm merely attempting to be civil. I
don't need to have a conversation with Kathy, I took care
of Luv's package and would tell Colleen that I'll drop his
package at her home, if not today, very soon. I would head
for the firm, before the library, grab the file and begin
checking it immediately; I'll come home tonight and devour
the file, I already have questions. I went into the
library, uploaded a couple of diary entries and left for
home.
4/15-10:50PM--Not many people at the rink, I like it that
way, there's a new skate guard; he can barely stay on his
feet. The new guard still practices skating backwards,
it's pitiful, so much for them having a position and
giving me a job; it would be like dropping chocolate on
your white shag carpet, then stepping in it. I don't fit
the social profile, then there's the money they offer for
the position.
I brought tools for the young girl with the roller blades,
dark skinned girl, always looks like she's running too
hard to get nowhere; I'd checked her skates and found the
wheels were too tight to roll. I also told Lisa that I'd
bring Finnius a 1/2" ratchet, he could take care of both
pairs of their skates, none of them skated tonight; not
even Sheridan.
I'd eventually talk to Patty, she made a point to get my
attention, we talked about her closing on her house and
recent events with Charlotte. Patty made a point to remark
on my not moving away from the area, we'd touch on so many
relative subjects, I did most of the talking and she was
happy to find herself agreeing with everything I said.
There was a group skating last night, the women seemed to
have been familiar with me, having seen me before; they
appeared to be showing an interest. The interest they were
showing would be affected by the familiarity I share with
Patty, I'd told her about that before, that the casual
observer would assume more to our relationship than ever
has been.
Charles called earlier, I stopped at his place on my way
home, everyone in the apartment was "zooted;" he wanted me
to tell everyone about my psychedelic trip in the
Shenandoah Valley.
I recounted the story and found myself enjoying their
enjoyment, I make and attempt to disuade their desires to
alter their consciousness, unsuccessful as yet.
I'd planned to check the file I got from the firm today,
I'm too tired, I'll check it in the morning; I just
finished a pint of ice cream and am ready for bed. I
printed the recent edit of "Adventures..." I have more
editing to do before adding to the story. I'd realized and
mentioned that I hadn't heard from Bea, since telling her
that I was seeing Charlotte, ironic that Charlotte seemed
to consider Bea as much of an adversary as Bea considered
her; neither of them is any closer to where I want someone
in my life and the hits just keep on coming.
Planning to see Pelham tomorrow morning, I saw Paula and
Brian when I arrived home, now to go to bed; I want a
cigarette.
4/16--4:36AM--Got up and made coffee, straightened my
bedroom, did leg raises and hindus; I'm already sore from
last night. I got a call from Pelham at 6, I'll be seeing
him at 9, I plan to have pancakes and soak. I'll be going
over the case file from 97, I'm already seeing
inconsistencies that don't appear to have been
satisfactorily addressed, I've gotten a vision of the
lawyer's response to any suggestion that the firm hasn't
handled my business satisfactorily, they can be dismissed
this close to the conciliation; I'll continue perusing the
file and should be in touch with the attorney before weeks
end. The attorney will need to confer with me to address
our previous business, in relation to our present
business, suffice to say I'm not pleased having unanswered
questions and I'm not pleased with their record
maintenance; this file raises more questions than it
answers.
What's up with desire, I still want to smoke a cigarette,
I still want to hear the sound of Charlotte's voice and
hold her close to me; knowing that both are doing more
harm than good.
Time to eat and shower, I'll be walking to Pelham's, then
hit the library and One Stop; I'll expand my job search
criteria to include the rest of the country.
4/16--2:04PM--Too much time spent at Pelham's, I did a
range of things with his computer, from disc cleanup to
defragmentation; compressing files and changing location
of commonly used business files. He still doesn't have a
clue, I told him that he needs to spend more time with his
system, I told him the library was my next destination; he
wanted me to explain why his website looked different from
one location to another. I couldn't tell Pelham why the
pixel resolution differed so radically, I didn't want to
get started on the work I'd planned to do with Pelham
continuing to question me about his concerns; we agreed we
were both hungry. Pelham suggested a place and offered to
treat the meal, being that I'd spent the morning with him,
I'd realize I'd spent almost 5 hours with the man; what
he'd given me didn't cover my time and he's suggested
clerical work he needs to have done.
Pelham has no office skills to speak of, I told him that
I'd make revisions for him, save the changes on disc; he
can review and print the forms/files as needed. I didn't
notice how small his place is, it's a studio apartment,
kitchen/bath/bedroom. Pelham's got an alcove he uses for
his office and a privately accessed front porch, he told
me that he'd paid $250 for heat this past season, I'm
thinking he must have had his thermostat extremely high.
The weather is changing, it will be hitting 74 degrees
tomorrow, I'll clean the inside of my car; shampoo the
upholstery. I'll see if I can get Paula to turn on the
outside spigot and I'll wash the outside of my car as
well. I'm heading to the library to research doing my
headliner, I'll go online and return home to examine my
previous legal file, I'll need to grab a couple of items
from the store and I'll drop the bag I got at Colleen's.
I'll call Lavon and see if he can help me create a card
for Charlotte's birthday, I want to use my own image and
text, I also have the correct paper weight for the card;
hopefully he'd have a way to supply the scoring.
I have one hell of an oral fixation, cigarette desire!




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