Jase

Enter My World...
2008-02-07 05:31:51 (UTC)

welllllll well well.

omg, i always forget about this place.

man, it's weird reading through old diary entries.
everything just seems so long ago now..

where do i start?

-i'm no longer friends with sara or nathan. i cba to go
into why because we fell out in august/september of last
year and i'm obviously over that now.

-i now spend most of my days in york with sophie =] i left
uni because i just couldn't budget. and the people in my
block were atrocious. and i learnt i wasn't as confident as
i first thought; i'll never forget that very first day how
i just cried and cried because i just couldn't introduce
myself. it was horrible. i came back home on the first
day...

but as i say, i now spend most of my time in york with
sophie which is amazing. its so great to be close friends
with her once again because i really value her. ya know. i
met her friend called alex (who she lives with) and she's
amazing...so she's become one of my closest friends. i'm
moving in with sophie in may when everybody fucks off home
for the summer cos obviously she's staying in york cuz ya
know, who wants to spend the summer in this shithole? lolz.
so i can't fucking wait for that. then in september i plan
on more or less moving in with her and alex (they get a
student house, and obviously they're living together) so i
just need a bit of money saving and bam, 2008 should be a
fucking great year. well, anything beats 2007 doesn't it?

my money sitch is still crap. the loan i got last
year...i've not made any re-payments and they keep ringing
me. i'm gonna make an appointment with the CAB in a few
hours to see what they can do because it needs sorting once
and for all. there's no point just putting it off because
i'll get deeper into shit and i just want this year scandal-
free for a change.

since my last entry, me and catherine have more or less
become best friends. she fell out with that dickhead nathan
because he stole her clothes (yeah, long story...) ...i met
her boyfriend, eric. he's lovely because he's got a dark
side/past. i just know it. me and sophie think he's on the
run from something back in america because he only bought a
single ticket, the things he's said he's done in america
disturb the fuck outta me (doing an american history x and
curb-stamping someone, restraining orders taken out against
his family), when he gets drunk he gets VERY disturbing (he
tried to strangle me and said his dead friends made him do
it because they thought i was coming onto cat...they
weren't aware i was gay apparently)...things just don't add
up. then i read a msg from his bro on his myspace and it's
like 'why didn't u tell me u got married?' - WTF? are him
and cat married? has my best mate told me she hasn't got
married? i'm gonna do some more diggin' because there's
things about him and them (as a couple) which don't add up
at ALL, and if they're gonna be living with us in the
summer then i need to find some shit out. i haven't talked
to them for a couple of weeks anyway - they just piss my
life away. they didn't come to york the other week cos of
some BS excuse - it's like, don't fucking bother messing me
about and wasting my time telling me you're gonna do
something when you just blatantly aren't gonna bother. ya
know.

i'm going to york for my 21st in exactly 2 weeks which
should be fabulous, but sophie myspace msg'd me and was
like "im going to derby on the 22nd or 23rd to celebrate my
bday" - how selfish. she KNEW i was fucking coming. and she
hasn't bothered replying to my msg about how long she
intends to stay in fucking derby - probably cos she'll know
i'll just ask to stay at hers. i won't have much money - i
mean, i've gotta pay £100 to HSBC on the 25th so i'm gonna
have to ask to lend money off mam but that's like asking to
lend money off a stone...i dunno how it's gonna work out
but i hope it does because ya know, you're only 21 once in
your life.

right, i'm off to bed cos it's half 5 in the morning
(exactly 5:30am, too). i'd say i'll update more often but
you know what i'm like, so expect to hear from me within
the next few weeks or so...orrrr, expect to hear from me in
6-12 months time.

i wonder which it'll be..




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