i love how i wrote my last entry a few days ago, and i'm
back now reading it. i do that sometimes to see if what i
said is what i really truely feel inside.
sometimes i write things down (or used too, not so much
anymore) if i am feeling emotional or i just have
something on my mind, and i feel like it's all coming out
perfectly but when i go back and read what i wrote, it all
feels fake and not at all how i had planned.
the entry before this made me happy because it is how i
really feel... and i feel like a explained it perfectly
i'm so in love with this boy and i know this because my
feelings havent changed since 2004 and ive never been so
sure about anything in my entire life. i want and need
him so badly but at the same time i know it would never
work because we just seem to clash too much, and it would
ruin the friendship we do have which KILLS me to think
about. at the same time as thinking all of this, i still
can't help how much i dislike him right now, and ive ever
felt like this before. i like him so much and i would love
his company if given the chance but talking to him just
angers me so bad because he has become careless and i
can't stand it.
I GOT A NEW CAT!
his name is sandford, i love him. he's cute.
i do miss poe though :(
I LOVE YOU.