Middle Child

Listen. Don't Speak.
2008-01-11 18:10:47 (UTC)

ohh fridays

This was a pretty interesting week and I'm glad it's over.

I experienced my first full week of school. I'm tired, well
not really, I think I feel more focused because i haven't
been spending the time out of school sleeping. And since i'm
taking more courses, well an extra class, i'm more up and
about and trying to schedule a time for reading. i think
it'll be a good year, i feel it.

So last night i went for an interview at the rehabilitation
center and i got it. Now it's a matter of, do i actually
want to expose myself in a rehab center? will the volunteer
work be useful for me? can i give them a year of my time?
The good thing about it, is that most volunteers get a job
there once their done. Which is perfect for me! I was also
told that their offer courses and once you're done you
receive a certificate.

The reason why i'm ify about it is because of my mom. I know
that i live for myself. i know that. but i need my mom's
encouragement. I want her to smile at me and say "do it,
it's a great opportunity". Last when i came home and i told
her about it, she seemed emotional less, was quiet. In my
heart, i feel nothing. I don't feel like this is wrong. i
don't. I want to do it because of the experience, but i'm
not sure this what i want!!!! I don't know what to do. I
need to decide by tonight....

I want to talk to someone about this, but i don't have
friends who want the best from me. My best friend will just
be jealous of me and put me down. I don't know what to do
or who to talk to...