Middle Child

Skating Today

I'm going skating this afternoon for the first time this
year. I'm pretty excited. I love skating. I wish I could
have been a figure skater. I had the chance to, but I turned
it down when I was young. I was such a shy little girl, it
affected my life soooo much. I started to let loose when I
started working. You meet so many people, work with so many
people so have to be talkative.

Anyways, last night I went out with an old friend from high
school. I had a crush on him throughout high school and we
never dated. I guess now that we're older, it's a better
time to date? But, I don't like him like I use to. I feel
nothing towards him. All I feel is just happy to be with him
and happy we still talk, but there are no romantic feelings
towards him. We got pretty close last night when he dropped
me off home. He isn't working tonight and really wanted me
to call him to chill. I don't want to for a few reasons. 1)
My mom will start giving me shit, saying I can't date him
and by always chilling with him, will give him the wrong
impression. 2) He's into drugs and shit. I'm not down with
that. I don't want to date a guy who does that shit. I don't
want it around me. Maybe if shit was different and he wasn't
into that stuff. Then MAYBE I would think about it. Ughhhh.

After work last night, I went to get my eyebrows done. This
lady DID NOT LISTEN TO WHAT I WANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have nooooooo eyebrows! IT's super thin! I look sooooo
old!!!!! Im so upset about it. I HATE, HATE, HATE THINK
EYEBROWS! I already had no eyebrows to begin with and then
to take it alll off! FUCK! It'll grow back in 2 weeks. I
will not fix my eyebrow until the summer. When they grow,
they don't grow as though their are caterpillars on my eyes.
It's light and there isn't a lot that grows. When I don't do
it, you can't tell at all! In photos i look like i have no
eyebrows. GRRR SO MAD!